Thursday, December 2, 2010

It is just the matter of time



my tummy on 6 weeks onward
*Since 2 weeks ago lately, i ate moderately and just in time. Breakfast (must have) - Tea - Dinner.

Umi-To-Be
*Expression of not-ready-mode and fluctuation of mood. (-__-)

2 years ago before i married to my other half........ Jogging near the lake with my mum.
Mama : Why you don't want to settle down early this year?
Me : I'm not ready. My body just not in shape that i want. (grinning). The fact is, i'm not ready and i wanted to graduate my mountain list before married.
Mama : When i was 24, i got u. So, now you are 23. How long you want to take to settle down your "graduation"?
Aren't you afraid of getting baby in late twenties?
Me : Kun Fa ya kun Mama. I know Allah knows well when is the best time for me to have babies.

|| .....And the conversation just end like that ............................................ until yesterday...................... ||




something happen on my important day ever. When i was attending for my second interview. And less than 30 second i left the entrance of HR department, the HR director calling me out loud.

HR : Are you working today or on leave?
Me : No. I'd take unpaid leave. Why En. XXX ?
HR : can you do medical check up today?
Me : Owh..ok! my pleasure. (My father was so tempered when he knows i agreed to do the medical check-up instead of request for offer letter first before doing the medical check-up. I don't know it was the company's "play safe" before hiring new employees).
Receptionist : Akak, according to my experience, you are hired. congratulation !!!.

i just can't stop grinned that time and off to panel clinic nearby.

At the clinic, after the medical check-up. My name was called out. The on duty doctor keep grinning and asked about my health.
Doctor : Married ?
Me : Yes.
Doctor : How long?
Me : Approximately 9 months.
Doctor : COngratulations. You are pregnant. When is you last period?
Me : 22nd October ( the day when i decended from Mount Liang East West)
Doctor : Ok...so, probably you are 6 weeks pregnant now. But, According to the XYZ company's policy, they don't accept pregnant women to hired new staff. But, anyway, congratulation . Maybe this is not the right place for you to stay. Perhaps, maybe there is another better chances/rezeki in future.
Me : Owh. ok. ( Excited + Frust. I nearly get the job that i wanted.)
Until today, there is no call from the company nor offer letter.

I was stunned all the way driving from Klang to Shah Alam to celebrate my lil sis Convovation. Tears of joy and frustrated at the same time pouring. All i need at that time is just courage . The sad part is most of close person that knew the news, saying "Owh no. Its hard for you to get job right now. there will no company to hire a pregnant women for new stuff. "i've told ya"!!! ". And not 1 person, but a few of people keep on repeating the same answer! and this is totally discourage me and they knew i was job hunting and desperately need a better job. This kind of courage is totally making me so down+discourage. I was not planning to be like this. I'm not the One who creating human!
Istighfar...istighfar....
But today, i slowly can accept the fact that i'm carrying precious gift from Allah.In fact, I am excited ;-).
New experience + new life + new members. Personally, i believe in Allah fate. He know what is the best for us and when is the right time He want to give what we wanted so much. It is just the matter of time. But, honestly, i still, sometime feel down for not getting a better job. (Kena settlekan road tax & insurance bulan depan!!! Varians gaji kerja dulu dan sekarang beza sekali ganda. i mean, decrease sekali ganda. sigh**)



I eat for 2 persons starting from now
*To tell the truth, yes. I am UMI-To-Be.
According to the doctor , i am 6 weeks pregnant. Ok. So, next year , there will be 3 of us. or maybe 4? hehehe.

Our dinner
*Our dinner for tonight.
Thanks to my other half for preparing all these. Sorry for being too pampered since i know i'm pregnant. my mood sometimes kinda whiplash. Sorry for a zillion times. Since 2 weeks ago, i started to notice that my mouth always watering ,craving for food just like this afernoon, i'm craving for auntie Anne pretzel Almond flavor. And now, craving for Eel Grill with japanese rice. Ok, will hunting this food on this weekend. And..... no more mountain climbing (-__-) for 1 year perhaps starting from today onwards. maybe? Uoohhh.... Honestly, i miss hiking a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttsssssssss.... (kempunan nih) it's been a month i'm not carrying my favourite green karrimor in greenery+freshness+cold river jungle . .TSskkkk... I may say i can't fulfill my wish to grad G7 mountain list before expecting a baby. Nonetheless, Highly gratitude to Allah for giving us a precious gift.

Thinking of new hobby for Umi-to-be. Tsskkk...
1. Photography
2. reading novel
3. Painting ( don't know yet the concept)
4.
5.
6.
7.

Any idea? new hobbies for an extrovert Umi-To-Be.


P/s : Jo, jangan sebarkan dulu kat kawan-kawan kita tau. Malu.... (^__*)
Jo --> Kawan gunung seangkatan. Sangat best membaca blog beliau. Meaningful and tahap Raja Lawak Antarabangsa. Serius tak tipu. Hik...hik... *sori Jo, terpromote plak blog awak.

10 comments:

Aidah said...

tahniah... jaga kesihatan tau..

lydia said...

Time kasih kak aida... =)

amiza said...

hafiz, congrats for the great news and welcome to the club!!
lydia, treasure every moment of your pregnancy because it's beautiful and take care!!

Dewajiwa said...

TAHNIAH Lyd!
tenang ye. pasal keje tu, Lyd jangan risau. ada rezeki untuk anak-anak. insya-Allah.

Unknown said...

congrats Lyd & Emon.
take care ya~

Madam Amie said...

Salam, Lyd...
When i was read your entry today i was in Bengkel Teknik & Strategi Penulisan Journal for my future PhD preparation.. Lyd... air mata kita ni mengalir tau tak! U kene bersyukur lyd!! u know what... berapa ramai perempuan yg dah kawin kat luar sana tuh begitu mengharapkan cahaya mata... u mesti heppy lyd! must! i know .. u memang mengharapkan sgt2 kerja tuh.. tapi percayalah Allah tidak akan membebani kita lebih dari yg sepatutnya... :)) baby tuh pun rezeki yg datang dan akan membawa kepada punca rezeki yg lain juga... :)) so, skrg enjoy every moment as umi-to-be like me right now!! one day baby tuh akan mula menendang then u realize that... kerja tuh bila2 masa boleh dicari tapi baby/anak... usaha bertahun2 pun kalau Allah x izinkan lagi... kita akan lebihhhh tension dari yg selalunya... :)) Congrat my frenz!!!!

lydia said...

wOW!!!!
sALAM...

Kak Miza : Thanks kak. I will... esok nak beli almond yang macam akak suggestkan tuh =D

Poncho : Tenkiu2... nak tempah poncho bawak baby carrier with the baby utk trip akan datang...ehehehehe...

Edot : Tima kasih banyak2 =).

Amlya : Time kasih tak terhingga atas segala sokongan dan kata-kata semangat dari u!! really2 appreciate it! BEstnya nak sambung PhD!!! mind to share ? Kite ada niat nak sambung. Tapi, tak tahu nak mula dari mana. uhuk2.. anyway, terima kasih banyak2... Happy to be your friend! walaupun tak pernah jumpa ;-)

Madam Amie said...

Lyd.. nak sambung master ek.. u search mana2 U yg sesuai tapi rasa2nya ada certain2 U kene isi form recommendation kan... macam UKM dan USM... pastu go for next step register and bla bla bla...jgn lupe survey mode of study apa yg u nak.. pastu of course fees... u boleh buat pengeluaran KWSP akaun 2 utk byr yuran... macam kita pun guna KWSP.. rather than u buat loan... pastu apalagi ekk... nnti Lyd tanya la.. heheheh

Lyana Mansor said...

tahniah ye lyd..

pasal kerja tu..takpe lah..mesti ade yg lagi baik untuk ko....lagipun rezeki tu Allah yg bagi kan...asde org keje best2 gaji beso2 tapi...takde anak! lagi sedih..kan..kan....

lydia said...

mely, thanks ek. Aku akan kuatkan semangat & cuba utk tak rasa down... =)